yes, I've been putting off this post

For no other reason than the fact that I have so much to say about it.
I can't possibly write it all... I can barely put most of it into words, there is so much going on in my head on a day to day basis. I'm having a really hard time wrapping my head around some all of it.

We are moving to Nashville.
After much thinking and praying and talking and praying and weighing and praying and debating and praying Ryan accepted the position he was offered with a research group at a well respected medical university in Nashville, Tennessee.
I am so incredibly proud of my husband as this is an amazing opportunity for him and it's exciting to see him looking forward to being a part of such important work in this field. And to know everyone is so anxious to have him on board. I know he will be so successful in this.

Not as excited, looking forward to or anxious about the move though.
Well, maybe anxious, but not in a completely good way.
It was a really tough decision for us because we really really didn't want to have to leave here. Really.
But... A) Ryan would have a really hard time passing up this opportunity and I'm sure would kick himself for a long time after if he did.
and B) We're getting down to the wire here and while he was pretty confident something would have eventually panned out here at home (but with some nervewracking time in between I'm sure), honestly a job in Nashville is better than no job.

So we're going.
Don't know when, don't know how, but it's been decided.

Ryan starts down there March 1.
Hopefully four days a week and he'll come home on the weekends.
Our original thinking was he'll do that for three months and then we'll all move down once the school year winds down in June, letting the kids finish out everything here in the spring and with their classes.

Now that a decisions been made though, suddenly I'm kind of in the mindset of; if we're going to move I just want to get it over with. I don't want to drag it out for six months... it'll be cheaper for us if we can just move as soon as possible, we can get it over with and start getting settled down there, etc. I don't want this consuming our life for the next five/six months.

The problem is, we really need to either move now or in June. Anytime in between is just not good for Savannah being in school... who wants to start in a new class and school and routine ad friends with just like eight weeks left of the school year?? But June seems so far away and we can't possibly move right away, right away; we have plenty to do with this house before we can put it on the market and Ryan is really hesitant to even think about putting an offer on something else before this is sold.

So.

Who knows what we're doing.

And I have a lot to say about a lot of that... church and friends and neighborhoods and finding a new house... things I'm thinking about leaving behind and things I'm wondering about going into... lots of reflection, lots of wondering, lots of stuff.

I'm sure some of that will make it's way here as I process it. I hope so, because I need to process it.

Oh, I bet you can't wait!!