off to dreamland

for hopefully some better dreams than the last few nights.
Two nights ago I had two separate dreams about horrible head-on collisions, one of which I witnessed first hand. I personally had no part in either of the crashes except for the aftermath, and then being super anxious driving around in my dream. The whole rest of my dreams that night focused on me worrying about Ryan driving to work every day.
I realized I had those dreams after seeing this on the news that day.
I do worry about Ryan driving to work every day. My dreams didn't help that fact. There is not a day goes by when he leaves for work that the thought doesn't cross my mind that I could never see him alive again. I don't know why it freaks me out so. I think it's just the fact that we're apart. I don't think twice if all or both of us are in the car... I only worry when he's driving away from me. Funny, since his work commute since I've known him has varied from a 40-60 minute drive one way. I say lots of little prayers for him during those drives. :)

I know I had really weird dreams the next night as well, I just can't remember them now.

Last night was one of those long continuous, feels like it goes on all night kind of dreams. I would halfway wake up and roll over or something, one time I even took a drink of water, and then go back to sleep and the dream would pick up where I left off.
My parents were looking to buy a house and for some reason Ryan and I were trying to talk them into this house that we had looked at before we bought ours. In my dream I knew every little detail of the house and we were showing my parents all the great things about it, and the great yard and how the price had gone down and they should really buy it. It was funny though, because the house seemed so familiar, but in real life I've never seen it before. The other funny thing was, was that I think the house was supposedly one we had looked at before buying our house in Jackson, meaning the house was in Jackson, but we currently lived in our house here... not in Jackson, so why would we be pressuring my parents to buy that house?
Then somehow there were bad guys involved and we had to get the kids out of there and someone was following us and the details are all fuzzy now (I should have written it down when I woke up because it was a really vivid dream), but we ended up in this scary chase all over the place, hiding out with these guys trying to kill us for something. It was bad and I thought it would never end.

*****
I love dreams. I go through "dry spells" where I don't remember dreaming much, if at all, and I always think that's so boring. haha! I like to remember dreams and wonder where different elements of them came from and what my subconscious is saying. I think dreams are incredibly interesting. I used to keep a dream journal, and I loved writing things down to remember and reflect on later. If I wrote them down, when I read it years later I could still remember them quite vividly. I did a huge semester report on dreams one year in high school, with a bunch of research into interpretation and meanings and patterns and things like that. It was so interesting!

Anyway, here's to better dreams tonight...